DRIVEN

The girl

2009-09-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

She keeps listening to that particular song. Over and over, continuously clicking on the title on her media player. Its like a breathe of calming air that came from the ears and rushes to the heart. It makes her feel sad and happy at the same time. The lumpy-choking-falling feeling that you get at the end o a really good happy-sad-emotional movie. Its the way the melody and the words of a poet just complement each other.

This girl use to be so damn proud of her music. How it sets her apart, made her feel superior, different and not superficial like how she views her world and the puppets that walk pass her and giving that 100 watt of fake smile. But like every perfect nut on the tree; it has no way to go but hit the ground before being cracked by the cunning Mr and Mrs squirrel. Then she realises that her music is not hers to begin with but to share. And maybe some say the music she listens to - that she claims give her more oxygen than the act of breathing itself is nothing but music for the dead and those who are about to succumb to death itself.

Her heart does ache when people are not able to find the jewels that she has found in her playlist.
Nevertheless, she is never happier to surround herself in the endless songs in her playlist. Sometimes, there are songs with loud noise as the old refer to; then the music shuffles to the songs that praises and reminds her to the faith she hold strong to; it never ends because it shuffles to the slow soothing soft melodies that tells her life is like how Annie always say it is 'A hard-knock Life' but there will always be hope and love. Yes, the one thing that all the songs written by a wide range of musicians from different countries, backgrounds, race, beliefs and gender always reminds her is that there is always love. Always.

A perfect day

2009-09-03T16:50:00.003+08:00

A new band discover Great Lake swimmers.. Gentle music that is best accompanied with soulful companion, hot chocolate, blankets, cold weather, rain and the best conversation. It sounds like a perfect day.

Alhamdullilah

2009-09-03T16:45:00.004+08:00

This feels like a tough Ramadhan season.. Its probably cos I have been lazing around most of the time.. Making me hungry... Anywhoo, I completed surah Yunus Juzuk 10 (quran reciting) in a day!! That felt so goos to accomplish a goal.. wohoo..

30 minutes to go..

2009-09-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

My faith

2009-09-01T09:12:00.003+08:00

Yeah yeah..

2009-08-14T01:28:00.002+08:00

I know. I am suppose to be like blogging with all the free time I have right?? But as you all know..
Well who cares why I don't blog that often. Maybe I'm just intimidated or lazy or a million other excuses..

My big news is that I have gotten my place in Alexandria. Alhamdulillah. Praises to Allah.

I truly do believe now more than anything that everything happens for a reason. Every bad and good always have its own agenda that you may or may not realise.

Another thing is that I'm worried for my grandmother. She has been in the hospital for 2 weeks and counting. And I pity her because you take and active 65 year old women out of her daily routines, then tell her she has to just sit in bed and rest. Its heartbreaking but my grandma is a strong women. InsyaAllah everything will be ok.

So that is all.. I'll try to blog more?? haha..

Cheers

Rosi Golan

2009-07-07T01:23:00.001+08:00

OMG

I love her songs.. Check her out.. Just do it. Its simply simple.. Kudos

Quotes

2009-07-02T15:14:00.001+08:00

Don't threaten someone unless your willing to hold on to your threats.
If not that'll just make you a coward.

-Dr. Gregory House

Random

2009-06-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

The bloods have caused more tears than camaraderie.

okay.

2009-05-29T15:58:00.001+08:00

The forms are done. I hope everything works out. I surely want this thing to work out. Then, I'm off to Egypt.. Wheeee...

Updates I drove to gurney. Hehe. Ok. My confidence is growing bit by bit. It is great. I really have my near moments. But that is normal right. Lol. All in all. I am happy. Right now.

Confession of a hermit.

2009-05-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

Ok I am afraid to drive. I am admitting it for the first time.. You know in the beginning I was so confident, upbeat, positive.. Now, I am not. Its people keep telling me off. Then again, my mouth keeps preaching about how you should not care so much about what people say or do... Live life by your standards and the standards you admire..

Anyhooo.. my pal told me just go for it. Yeah, like what do I have to lose. fear cannot and shall not rule me.. But dude.... the jitters man... Humm..

The question is how long do you want try to be perfect. I think that is my problem 'image'. I try so damn hard to be perfect, to do everything by the rule, to please people and then being bitter about it by myself.. It has to stop. I have to live. Stop trying to be mature when I am not or stop being childish just to get things. Stop running and and definitely stop living in my head.

Its time to truly truly change......

Humans

2009-05-20T19:03:00.002+08:00

Its ironic. Oh maybe its not. But honey if you have not contacted me for almost a month. Now, you sibuk call just to ask my results. Do you really think I'll answer your call.
What is the point knowing about other people's result. You want to feel better or gloat or boast. Like wtf.
My results only the important people will know. As for the rest of you. Maybe someday I will tell you.
Till then...

Bugger of..

11 days in KMK

2009-05-20T15:12:00.003+08:00

I love being on the other side. The side where you have to deal with the antics of everyone and not just give two cents about yourself.

It started alright better than expected.. Then the real test came. And there were many bumps with my own team and also other people.

The students of 09/10 seriously are clueless but I guess we were at their place during the beginning.I sometimes missed being oblivious.

I have one advice to them which would be to play hard and study hard.
That one year will be an awesome, crazy, emotional and roller coaster year for everyone.
And if you came from the same background as me than it will be a year of learning the hard-hitting-life-lessons.

Just to sum it up. I had the most wonderful time. Making more friends. Laughing and crying and being bitter all of it in one. I am surely going to miss KMK. It is unique in its own way.

Well I still did not get to know more about that tall-dark fellow. Lol. Maybe someday. Haha.
Maybe eh??

Although I do not show it often but I truly have a special place for all of ya in my heart.

Peace and love guys.

Juru.

2009-05-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen.

I feel liberated. Lol.
Tonight was good.
Needed it. Need a good laugh.
Thanks to them for willing to drive all the way to my place.
It means they actually want to see me.
Feels good to know that..
I love them so much and I'll miss them terribly..

Jo kickin Mich's ass..
Mich annoying Rica..
Me laughing at all of them..

Thanks guys.. I love you tons.... Pictures will be uploaded soon..
Xcept Jo didn't get the autocity sign.. Hahaha...
My sympathies babe...

Past Tense.

2009-05-05T20:25:00.003+08:00

I was just browsing facebook. And this picture of a girl I used to know... Of course she looks different but the memories I has with her. Its like so distant, far away seems like it was a galaxies ago when I last talked to her. This girl, we used to be close during the primary school and early high school. Then things happen, we followed our own path.

Feels weird.

If someone was to show me a picture of her and asks me do you know her. Most likely my answer would be no because darn I do not know her. Not only in the sense of personality. Physically, she has changed a bit. But the previous memories we had seems very very vague and blurry.

What I am trying to say is that its kinda sad for me. Cos' I could not recall anything.

It scares me cos sometimes I want to remember the good, even the bad memories.

Taking a picture its not the same thing.

This is a battle that every human being will lose. Forgetting is who we are.

Like they always say Humans often forget.

This is a long post. Am I making any sense??

Lies in your eyes

2009-05-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

MY HANDS WAS SO ITCHING TO BE ON YOUR THROAT.
right.
Take the high road.
Move on.
To think, I put it all in you.
Got screwed again.
This time I will not take the fall.
I don't hate you.
I can never hate you.
Just very very disappointing.
Ugh. You. Ugh.

Bulls- eye

2009-04-30T15:20:00.004+08:00

Libra Characteristics and Personality Traits

Libra charcteristics and personality traits - Zodiac Sign - ruled by Venus.

Your Sun Zodiac sign may not best describe your personality features, your characteristics and general qualities that you bring to life. For many people, their Ascendant or its planetary ruler is the more obvious characteristic, or sometimes the Moon sign. Your Sun sign, rather, says more about the direction you should be moving in, to make the contribution to humanity you were born to make, and thus achieve a degree of personal fulfilment.

The goal for Libra is to witness the importance of co-operation and harmony in human life. Libra is represented by a pair of scales - the only sign to be represented by an inanimate object. This says something about the Libra objective - to be fair and balanced in everything in a detached way - it is an air sign and therefore seeks an ideal. At its best, Libra can view complex situations, maybe emotionally highly charged ones, and come to a balanced view based on a fair consideration of all the options. However, it may take a while to come off the fence! Come down in favour of one side of the scales and the other side goes up and Libra always seeks to restore balance.

Traits of a Libra:

Desires popularity
Loves art
Neat
Dresses up for the occassion
Slight perfectionist
Narcisstic
Charitable
Bossy at times
Plans ahead
Attention to detail
Loves public service

Likes...

Beauty
Gifts
Debates
Attention
Intellectual conversations
Admiration
Credit cards
Mingling
Subtle colours, textures
Haute Coutoure

Dislikes...

Noise
Confusion
Sloppiness
Ugliness
Dirt
Pressured decisions
Being rushed
Criticism

Bulls its on target.

Libra

2009-04-30T15:15:00.004+08:00

7. Oh so loveable???
Still laughing

Balance

2009-04-30T15:06:00.003+08:00

Its been 13 days
Accomplishment.
NONE.
I need balance.
To prioritise.
Time might not be on my side after all.
But.
What do I put on the scales?

Oh and I'm a Libra. Sheesh.

Goal-Less

2009-04-30T14:51:00.004+08:00

Unfortunately, I did not get that opportunity jump up and down on the couch.
But it was a good match. It has its moments.
And dang...
It has been too long since I've watch the whole 90 minutes.
Still a major fan of The Blues.
My top five players are still in that club..

Come on chels!!

Hey now - Augustana

The Fray-Happiness

2009-04-27T13:03:00.001+08:00

Happiness is like the old man told me

Look for it, but you’ll never find it all

Let it go, live your life and leave it

Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home

Home, home, home

it got to me.

Re-establish

2009-04-27T02:40:00.003+08:00

Happiness

Felt it that warm fuzzy feeling today. Being or feeling happy; it's peaceful.

Today I kicked ego. And just talked to everyone. Its been too long.
All thanks to the girl who said Hello first.
We weren't close past nor present.
But, I knew she asked me cos she just wanted to know.
It triggered something.

Something that I'd really wanted to do.

Boom Boom Crash

2009-04-26T20:27:00.001+08:00

I drove again.
Kinda suck.
Haha.
But I would love just driving on highways.
No traffic.
I don't even mind driving manual for that.
Sorry ma my mouth need a slap at times.
But thanks for the shirt.
I love it.
You hate it.
But the best part you provide the Dinar.
Thanks.
I'm happy today.

missin YOU

2009-04-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

I know. I know.
I said I was over him.
BUT.
I really do miss him.
There was something there .
It wasn't clear or easy.
BUT.
I felt it.
He felt it.

Honest truth.
Compared to everyone.
I really did fell for him.

And now.

After that last message.

I am HURT.
why??
Did he say thing like that.
And not just end it.

S>S

dead AND gone

2009-04-23T19:16:00.001+08:00

I turn my head to the east

I dont see nobody by my side

I turn my head to the west

still nobody in sight

So I turn my head to the north,

swallow that pill

that they call pride

The old me is dead and gone,

the new me will be alright

close both eyes

2009-04-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a good day.
BUT

YOU disappoint me.

Why bother right.

Whatever man.

ON the other hand.

I had a good day.

I have a wonderful buddy.

I love you. Thank You.

close both eyes.
YOUR LIKE A BAD MILEY SONG which kinda mean like your just bad.

Your saliva.

2009-04-21T03:00:00.000+08:00

Maybe nobody likes you.

Dude words hurt.

why do you keep hurting my feelings.

Oh shit its breaking

Meanie.

2009-04-21T02:51:00.000+08:00

*finger points*
YOU guys are just mean.
1. Words hurt
2. Stop leading me on
3. Bugger off eh.